Talking To Myself

So, I feel as though I am just talking to myself on this blog. Where is everyone????????

Love,

~Lone Wolf~

Faith Almost Gone

I'm afraid that I don't really care about my faith that much anymore. I still like going to church and being at church but...I don't seem to care about praying or going to confession. I've been slowly going down hill in my faith for the last year and a half and it doesn't seem to be getting any better. I feel extremely depressed because of it. All I ask is that you guys please pray for me. Thanks.

Love,

~Lone Wolf~

Ow, Ow, Ow, and COOKIES!!!!

Basically, I'm in pain due to cramps. All you girls (and some guys) know what I'm talking about. I've taken two pain relievers thanks to it. I don't believe it helps that I've had pretty much ONLY junk food today. For breakfast I ate six powered donuts, part of a candy bar, and I drank some hot chocolate (curtsy of my Grandma). Then when I got to school I ate vanilla Ice Cream with chocolate and caramel syrup. When I got home I had spicy Doritos and a chicken vegi-burger which was probably the only healthy thing I've eaten. Afterwards, I had more candy. Yeah...not smart. I feel terrible. I'm fasting until morning now. I've decided that in the morning I will eat a banana and some raspberries.

Last night my friend let me ride her draft horse Gypsy. We have been secretly training her how to be ridden because the owners of the boarding facility don't think that she should be trained until her ground work looks better but Gypsy seems to like being ridden and does what we ask. She's only been ridden about ten times and she rocks! Sadly, Gypsy will be going to an Exotic Auction soon to be sold.

My brother and I haven't gotten into anymore major confrontations, which is good. I'm hoping that things will get better between us. Seeing in how he's going to be here all of my Christmas break it better and I just don't like it that we ALWAYS argue. Its wrong.

Love,

~Lone Wolf~

Depressed and Life Is Complicated

I know I shouldn't complain but I'm going to. I need to.

First off, I'm going to start trying to post on Riceball Alliance at least four times a week because it is so very, very neglected.

Second, my truck was totaled (for any of you who haven't been to my blog, I was in a car wreck, someone hit me and totaled his truck as well as mine) and the insurance company is giving me a little over 2,000 dollars for it which is basically going to get me a crap truck. I say truck because I refuse to have a car due to the fact that I get dizzy and sick while in them.

Third, my older brother came down for Christmas. He's only been here for two days and we've already started fighting, arguing, and disagreeing on things. Not to mention that he use to work at the place I now work at so therefore, I have to listen to how GREAT he was and the pressure to live up to everyone's expectations just continues to pile up. By this I mean that since he's going to become a priest almost everyone expects my younger brother and me to behave like him, dress like we're always ready to go to church and not be into cussing, watching, or listening to anything that may be considered evil. For example, Twillight. yeah...I can hear you guys now. UGGH! I'm SO SICK of it. He keeps pestering my brother and me on how we like to watch Anime and read manga, and how I like to read Vampire books. GRR! *sigh* I keep listening to the song "Breakaway" by Kelly Clarkson. I know. But its how I feel right now.

I'm just feeling REALLY depressed and down right now and now that Christmas is approaching I feel even more down because it'll be the first Christmas without three of my pets: Chip, Oreo, and Misty.

Okay, I'll stop with my emo complaining. LOVE you guys! I hope to hear from you all soon!

Love,

~Lone Wolf~

P.S. I am now Dustfinger.

Help

Life...is complicated...to say the least! >< Urg.

2 high schools (let's call them CC and TT)
Is it better to go to CC if your best friend is going there and maybe one of your other friends, it's a more art-sy (arts/literature, etc. which suits me better) high school than TT, recently opened around 1 or 2 years ago, has a bad orchestra (orchestra is a biggy!)

OR

TT, which has the rest of my friends going there (like 95% of the people who I know), has a better (waay better) orchestra than CC, has more popularity/social status-ish people (who judge you by what you wear and stuff...), is an older and well-known high school

So, CC or TT? *sigh* That is the question...best friend going to CC, better orchestra in TT

life is depressing

i feel that life is depressing at the moment
i have like 6 piano competitions coming up
like
all next month
:(
some on the same weekend!

arg!
i my piano teacher

-rebel.angel.7

Poor Poor Riceball Alliance.....Poor thing...

The title says it all. This blog has been neglected. The poor helpless little blog is probably crying in sadness. I love you blog. I'll talk to you. Your amazing! The best blog EVER!

Love You Forever,

~Raoul~

B-Day!!!

I am now officially 18!!!! It seems strange, knowing that I'll be leaving for college soon yet exciting at the same time. I'm not quite ready though. Sadly, I must say I don't want to leave because of my pets. They are the main reason for me wanting to stay home. My poor Toboe won't know what to do when I leave. I'm sure that Angelo will be fine and Ariel too...but Toboe will be very depressed. It can't be helped. The colleges I'm looking at don't permit animals on the school grounds. *cries* Its so unfair! I see the logic in it but still. Anyways, I must go now. I'm going to be eating cake and ice cream with my family in a few.

Love,

~Raoul~

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