Wednesday, September 5, 2007

Humans

it's sad that such an insignificant, low rate creature such as these can cause so much pain

how can humans go around saying such mean things to people with out caring what the out come may be

they are such hateful creatures and they call demons evil...

have they ever tryed looking at what they do by choice
at least what demons do is "evil" because they are suposed to be

humans do it by choice

they have free will after all

how can people go around saying things so hurtful and then try to blow it off or rationalize it

and why is it that we can never live up to other's expectations, why is it that we all have to have goals that we are suposed to reach already layed out for us

why can't we just be us

(*laughs sadly*)

i really shouldn't be left alone

i just make my self spiral further into depression


i don't think i have felt like this for about two years




36 comments:

Anonymous said...

your right. its our choice,

dont worry jaki at least ur making sense this time,lol.

Anonymous said...

hey so what brought on the wierd post?

The Jester said...

you mean who made me write that stuff

The Jester said...

... sorry i was preoccupied or i would have talked earlier

The Jester said...

and yes... i make sence...

i have a tendanay to make sence when i'm depressed

Anonymous said...

yeah whyd you write it?

The Jester said...

oh... i stopped by one of my teachers from last year's class to say hi and saw someone i knew there, so i made a comment about his haircut because i liked it. and just jokingly said that his hair may have been almost as short as mine because he had longer hair than mine for as long as i had known him and the teacher said that i shouldn't be talking to him because he made a five on his AP exam (which is the highest you can make). and both me and tom (who was with me) heard the way she said it was to mean that i wasn't good enough to talk to him because i only made a three (which is still passing but not good enough for her)so i said... why because i only made a three... then she tryed rationalizing what she said but it didn't change anything

i hate when people do that

make standards for me and hate me when i don't live up to them

it's worse now that my sister graduated as the valavictoian

The Jester said...

wolfy... where are you

have you also abandoned me

i feel hated and alone
(spiraling if at all possible deeper into depression)

The Jester said...

wolfy... do you hate me

you deserted me without even saying good bye

Anonymous said...

sorry jaki, dont worry I love you. naw, my computer broke. I got mad and hit it (a little 2 hard) and it shut down. ;)

Anonymous said...

wow, you have no idea how hard it would be 2 picture you in depression, actually I think that your incapable of it;)

Anonymous said...

I hope ur still on.

Silvertongue said...

Wolfy you are back on!!!

Anonymous said...

yes! did I go somewhere?

Silvertongue said...

Well, you have been gone forever.

Anonymous said...

well I was reminiceing (suck at spelling) about the good old days;

my arsen buddy would start fires with me, blow things up, piss off way to many people,.

ahh I can hear the sirens now, wait those really are sirens, lol, hope its not for me

Silvertongue said...

I think the next time you run from the law, take a laptop with you.

Anonymous said...

good idea, I might have 2 run when I steal one though,...

Silvertongue said...

Make sure it is charged first.

Anonymous said...

dont I need a internet connection first?

Silvertongue said...

Park outside a Starbucks or any other coffee shop.

Anonymous said...

dang now I have 2 stell a car AND a drivers lisence,

Anonymous said...

*steal*

Silvertongue said...

or just drive without one.

Anonymous said...

yeah I already hAVE THE CAR

Silvertongue said...

I want to start working.

Anonymous said...

I need a job!

Silvertongue said...

Ooooorrrrr, we join forces to rob a bank!

Anonymous said...

We need a beautiful assistant to distract unknowing appealed guards

Silvertongue said...

I nominate you wolfy. I bet you look great in a dress. (sorry i had to)

Anonymous said...

supprisingly I do, dont ask how I know

Silvertongue said...

Telling me not to ask makes me want to.

Anonymous said...

well I'm glad you didnt then

Silvertongue said...

actually i think you told us before.

Anonymous said...

dang

Silvertongue said...

I can't remember how far down it was, but i do recall you saying it.